suicide ...

Don't do anything drastic when you have these mood swings. A wise old friend of mine used to tell me that your problems are your friends. It's when everything is going great you have to watch out. Just remember it will pass, it's not permanent. There may be something bigger in your life that is making you feel like this, or even the heaviness of a lot of pressure that builds up, but these times will make you a better person.

You have so much going on in your life (from what I can see) - Music, artisitic direction, a family, and from what I can see is some great digital art. Also the family around you gets affected pretty hard by suicide. It's not a solo ride.

You'll be fine.

If it gets too bad or doesn’t seem to go away you might want to look into seeing a psychiatrist. I’ve got a couple family members and a few friends who had to see one and it really helped them.

If you ever need anything just email or msg me. I have been in your shoes on many occasions. Take care .....and yes.....it does get better.


Mara

Thanks guys. Appreciate it. Makes me feel a little better.

Hey lisen i thought of it many times on a serious level man, but some how you got to get through it, i always find a reason, for my family, friends, even your dog!!! you full of potentian, your work reflects that. Man you got to keep on going, if you seriously thinking of it you must must venbt out talk to someone, anyone thats willing to lisen I AM.... I know sometimes the future us scary man but, its also full of promise its all how you want to look at it. If you wanna talk take NL up on his offer or me.
Take care.,

You guys seriously think that everyone has thought about it?

If so... maybe it's time to look at what's going wrogn in your life...

My suggestion is (without trying to be assertive) God....

When i feel down, I ask God to fill me with his Spirit..... and.. almost right away.... i have a smile on my face (no this really isnt the placebo effect hihi)

Just a thought....

A close friend of mine from highschool killed himself last november, He moved to Texas after school and no one really knows why he did it at all. He was seriously the life of any party and always wanted to have a good time, it was an absolute shock. I think it is dumb for anyone to ever think of killing themselves. Everyone has hard times in their lives, and it will always get better. You should think about all your friends and family that you will be hurting. If you are having problems, goto your friend and family and talk about it, im sure they would be more than willing to do anything to help you. It not fair to them if you never ask for help, and just kill yourself. Hope it works out for you.

The thought has occured to me too but there is too much sh*t I want to do before I die.

I would advise against suicide while you are depressed. I suffer from depression too and you are not thinking very rationally when you are depressed. I'm sure you have lots to live for judging from your presence on the forum. There are millions if not billions of people worse off than you and they just deal with it.

There are millions if not billions of people worse off than you and they just deal with it.

I gotta agree there. Life may majorly suck at times.......but that doesnt make it bad. Just makes for an interesting journey. You'll pull through it ok.

And of course my AIM is there if you need it.

You may not want to air this publically, but what is making you feel this way? Did something happen? General depression? All of the above? I am just wondering what brought these feelings on, we might be able to help more if we can help you overcome what is causing it.

I think it is dumb for anyone to ever think of killing themselves.

I think everyone who has considered suicide thinks of it as an escape, they have reached a point where they feel they can't take it anymore. What I realized in my life is that when you have those feelings and you are able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, and overcome it. It makes you a stronger person. I really don't think it is a matter of it being dumb. Stress can be/is very overwhelming. It has never helped me when ppl say negative things. It actually has the opposite effect.

Mara